I shut this site down for a few weeks out of fear.
Fear of being out here, being seen.
That went against everything I stand for. Or, at least everything I’m trying to stand for. I fully believe that the only way to bring things into the light is to drag them there, sometimes kicking and screaming.
No, it’s not always easy to click the “publish” button after I have written something, but it is necessary. For me to release and for others to feel free to be 100% authentic in their own rite.
Yes, some of the things I write about are intense. And yes, I get scared of what people will think or say about me. Nevertheless, I’d rather have the truth out here, loud and proud, than some fake veil for you to see me through.
While this was hidden, I felt hidden. Today I am choosing to live my life in the light, and to do so I cannot hide.
Almost everything I have written about has reached someone, somewhere that needed to read it. They can feel seen just as I do, simply by knowing they are not alone.
For that I will risk the embarrassment, the open wounds and the brutal honesty.
I can’t tell you that I am with you, that I see you, if I won’t allow myself to be seen as well.