AK: I am sorry for not being at the right spot right now.
JB: I am sorry for not being the friend you need right now.
AR: I am so very sorry for meeting you at the wrong time in my life.
CK: The only thing I can say I’m sorry to you for, is that this is so hard for me.
Okay, so, I think that just about covers it. I know that I can’t make up for being such a shitty person all at once. But I am going to try my hardest.
This isn’t the person I am inside. This person people are seeing is a woman who is breaking each second of the day. I know that is the worst excuse. And because of that I plan to stay away from these people until I heal. I love all of these people for being a part of my life, and the last thing I want is to show them this part of me.
I know I will heal. I know this is just temporary pain. I just hope the people I care for are still around whenever it is that my heart mends.
I’ll come back. I always do.