My baby sister was born yesterday at 5:30pm. She weighed 6 pounds and 5 ounces. I am so happy she is healthy and everything went well.
However, at this point I am wondering what my place is in all of this. Do I go to Buffalo and visit; or do I stay here and wait until my Father and Ann need something from me? I’m not sure. I am just now sure how I will react when I see her for the first time. I am afraid of giving off the wrong vibe. I am scared that I will cry or, I don’t know, just do something wrong.
I have no idea how I am supposed to feel or act right now. I was so excited about this for nine months. And now that she is finally here I am just plain scared. Scared because I don’t know what a sister is supposed to be like when she is 22 years older than her sibling. I don’t want to go there and hold her and fall in love with her, and not want to leave her. I don’t want to resent her either. I just want to love her, and do what is best for her.
Any comments or suggestions would be much appreciated.
Thank you, and good night all!